Saturday, August 07, 2010

Max and Erika

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Growing old is not for sissies.

I see that it's been months since I wrote in my blog. I guess I haven't had much to say. Actually, I've just been busy and tired. I find it hard that as I grow older, my body doesn't handle the physical activity. Sure I can walk and work in the yard all day but then at night, I pay dearly for it. It is frustrating because I don't have health insurance and going to the doctor means all they can do is give me medication that helps but not enough. Maybe after all the tests they would do, they would find that it's arthritis and the treatment is the same. I work in the medical field and sometimes feel that insurance companies are a big scam with so many hidden costs like co-pays and deductibles in addition to the monthly bill. People still can't afford to go to the doctor.
I feel like I miss out on so much because even if I feel ok, my hubby doesn't. He has back problems that are turning into nerve damage and the medications don't help. We rarely feel like doing anything after a day of work. We miss out on so many things.
I worry about the future and hope one day we can afford to retire and actually enjoy life but living in Michigan makes me feel that is not something I can hope for.
I will never give up though. I will continue to do what I can and leave what I can't do. I may not have the cleanest house or prettiest garden, but for now, it's ok.